Feb. 9, 2010

I am so incredibly sore today. It sucks knowing that I'm so out of shape. But soon...very soon I will be back in the swing of things and my body will be able to take it again. I'm having a hard time doing anything today. Everything hurts from my quads to even the muscles in my throat, yes...my throat. I have to just push through it and jump back into class on Thursday. I could feel how much of a difference taking those classes made in the way I felt mood-wise comparing yesterday to today. Today I was a little more out in daydream land than I was yesterday. For me, being out in daydream land is something that happens too often to the point where I plan too much and think way to much and too hard about everything. But, when I dance...I'm so in the moment! Last night when I got home and I was showing my routine I finished and when I was done dancing Matt just looked at me and said, "you were so in the moment, I could just see it in your eyes." And it hit me, that's why I love to dance. That's why I need to dance. For me, dance is what keeps me together. I don't have to worry so much or don't have to stress about anything. All I need to think about is what I'm doing in that exact moment and to me, that is the best feeling I can have. Matt thinks I have ADD because when my mind is focused on something, it's nearly impossible for me to concentrate on anything else. But not when I'm dancing...that all goes away then. So...to keep dancing is the goal. I can't wait to buy the unlimited package for the month so I can go as often as I want. Right now I'm aiming for 8-10 classes a week. Matt says in order for us to buy this for me and to make it worth while I have to dance at least 32 hours a month. Easy. Got it. So I'm going to be dancing and Matt's signing up for the gym. We're going to be in such good shape when we get married : ) How exciting! Time for me to go stretch though now, I need to not be this sore at work again tomorow, it seriously made my day so hard...and tomorrow is going to be a good day!